Rainy Month ♥

Kyaaaa...
November is coming ♥

Always rain and rain everyday
Make me so lazy to school
I just wanna lay in my bed
wkakwakwkakw
Like a bruno mars' song, ya?

I don't hope to much for this November..
Just be good :)

I will have a test month
And a test for 1 Semester :D
I wish I can past it very well ;D

haha
I wanna share to you about something..
:p
I just falling in love with a really cute boy ♥.♥
He's so cool >.<
I like him so much :D
He's the second person that make me so miss him ..

He isn't a boy
That I ever say in my blog
He just another guy
That can make me so miss him ,... muuuuachhhhhhhhhhh :*

Now, I really miss our chat
I think He will never like me like I do
But I don't want to hope too much
Because it can make me hurt so much ):

Wish One day
He will know about my feeling♥
And I hope this is the last time
I'm falling in love with a cute guy
unyyyuuuunnnyyuuuu >.<
:*

I'm not brave enough

It's a long time
So long . . . .

And I think I already forget you
Have nothing feeling about you,,
But your message today 23 October 2011
Make me afraid . . .

I think I already forget you
But when you come
It's changed

I think and

Always
When I think can face you with
All my changes and my strength

I just can't
I'm scared

I'm not brave
I seemed only used to without you

I think I still love



but I wished
I DON'T HAVE  FEELING FOR YOU ANYMORE...

Please.
Go away from my mind.

I'm still not brave enough........

Tired !!!

uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..............
what a hell day !!!!

I'm tired
I'm tired to hope

I'm tired to wish
I'm tired to do :(

They will never realized !!!!
How could I survived !!
THEY JUST KNOW JUDGE ME !!!!
BUT NEVER KNOW THE REAL CONDITION !! 

They just know to hurt me
To make me sad, feel wrong and  depressed 
They just know to call me to do something
THAT I REALLY DIDN'T WANT TO DO !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm so so so soooooooooooo tired of this life !!
Wanna D.I.E
Don't want to life anymore ......

 
WHAT A FUCKING LIFE IS THIS !!!
HATE MY LIFE !!! 

 

Happy One weeks October ^^

Hello :) 
I just realized that it's October right now :p
And I haven't update my blog for a long time 


It because of my difficult exam 
But now I have passed it.


On eight October
I have gone to Kisaran >.<
Have 3 hours to go there by train
Not so tired but so happy >.<


I went there w/ my besties
there are divan, emy and shella :D


I went there to go to my besties birthday party :D
Her name is Veronica
I usually called her Ve , Vellow or Vero :D
She was have a Seventeen birthday party
How wonderful !! >.<


There Just some pictures
I wanted to share with you :)


She was Vellow
So beautiful , wasn't she? :D

She's Vellow :D

Start to LOVE = Start to HURT !!!

Hello my blog
Long time no see :)

Hello SEPTEMBER
You're come now :)

I just hope in this month
I don't have many problems
Don't have problem is same nothing to solve..

but real isn't same with dream

Problem is coming :(

I love someone
I love him so much
But sometimes I think I just like him

This feel killing me so hurt
How's come?

He's look like me
But he doesn't like me
He's look love me
But he doesn't love me

Your behaviour make me so confused
Your behaviour make me to like you more
Miss you more....
And.....
Love you more ....

I start to like,
To love
And
To miss someone like I do at the past
But
Can I accept all this feeling??
I'm so afraid to feel hurt anymore
Afraid to know how the taste of dissapointed again...

Your behaviour make me crazy
Make confused ,
Make me hope you more to be someone special in my life...

Do you know how hurt this feeling
When you like someone
But that someone just see you
Like a friend?

I think
I'm so in love with you
Could you be mine?

For My Ex-Boy Friend

Emm..
I just have a small thing that I wanna said to you
I think you will feel annoyed or something

But I just wish you will read
My small wish

Ex..
Did you ever think how my life when you leave me?
Did you ever think how my life when you go and give me many memories to remember?

 

How about you're promise to me?
to keep me  FOREVER?????
to care me  FOREVER?????

to miss me  FOREVER?????
to love me  FOREVER?????

NOW ...
You're FOREVER was just a BULLSHIT !!

But that not the important think again
because
I don't love you like the past I do

Just wanna said : 

You're the best person I've ever met in my life

You're the best person who ever comes in my life 

Little things you do to me 

Make my life much more fun

Thank you for your care during this time 

I will never forget you

But

That doen't mean I still love you  

And 

I will always be remembered you in my life 

Because you taught me to be strong :)

Thank You Lung :)  

I wish one day

You'll read my wish in my blog

Thank You so much :*

My Poem ♥

Hello :D
Long time no see my Lovely Blogger
Miss You damn much ♥
 

Now, I want to share my poem :)
But, I just write in Indonesia
Not in English . . . 


I write this poem
When I was crying, remember " H.I.M."
And
When I was missing " H.I.M"


Don't you think it so painful for me?
I cried all the night . . . .. 


Next day
My eye was swollen
Like a frog
Hahahaha

My friend said that such to make me laugh again:)
Thank You
But this poem title is given by my friend .
His name is Fery
Thanks You :)

This is My Poem

Luka di Hati

Terlukis berjuta Kata

Yang ingin ku katakan padamu

Terlukis berjuta Rahasia 

Yang ingin ku bagi padamu

Tapi apa daya yang dapat ku perbuat

Kamu selalu menganggap ku tak ada

Mengacuhkan ku layak angin yang berhembus tak tentu arah 

Kamu selalu menganggap ku sebagai benalu hidupmu

Hanya sedikit tatapan dan perhatian

Pun tak ingin kamu berikan padaku

Hanya ingin di mengerti bukan di acuhkan

Pun tak ingin di tinggalkan maupun di lupakan

Sampai kapan kah aku mampu bertahan

Menahan semua rasa yang ada

Sampai kapan kah ku mampu menutupi

Rasa yang telah kupendam padamu selama ini

Mungkin hanya waktu

Yang dapat mengobati luka ini

Luka yang terlalu dalam

Yang tergores di dalam hati.

 Haha

I'm translate now

In English version 

I'm so sorry

if I have a little wrong >.<

Because 

No body perfect :p

 

  

Pain in My Heart

Painted a million words

What I want to tell you

Painted millions of Secrets

What I want for you

But what can I do for power

You always take me there

Ignored me, like decent winds aimlessly

You always thought of me as a parasite life

Only a few stares and attention

Did not want you to give me

Just wanted to be understood not in the ignore

Did not want to leave and in the forgotten

Until when was I able to survive

Holding all the sense that there

Until when if I could cover

All sense which has buried  for you during this

Perhaps the only time

That can treat these injuries

So much pain
What is etched in my heart.
 

Thank You >.<

:* 

Singing :)

This time our practice exams in order to sing english songs, to the value of our english:)

There is so much going on values​​, such as pronunciation, intonation, memorizing lyrics and style of our time dancing

Because the SCIENCE classroom, we were allowed only on 1 and 2 people only

>. <

Whereas class allowed SOCIAL 1, 2 or 3 people

It's not fair

But, what can make

Our class students are fewer in comparison class SOCIAL



I decided to sing solo

Not because a higher value or lower value

Because according to my own singing more easily and not have to teach and share - for the tone



I decided to sing "FLYING WITHOUT WINGS"

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Everybody's looking for that something
One thing that makes it all complete
You'll find it in the strangest places
Places you never knew it could be

Some find it in the face of their children
Some find it in their lover's eyes
Who can deny the joy it brings
When you've found that special thing
You're flying without wings

Some find it sharing every morning
Some in their solitary lives
You'll find it in the words of others
A simple line can make you laugh or cry

So, impossible as they may seem
You've got to fight for every dream
Cos who's to know which one you let go
Would have made you complete

Well, for me it's waking up beside you
To watch the sunrise on your face
To know that I can say I love you
In any given time or place

It's little things that only I know
Those are the things that make you mine
And it's like flying without wings
Cos you're my special thing
I'm flying without wings

And you're the place my life begins
And you'll be where it ends

I'm flying without wings
And that's the joy you bring
I'm flying without wings
 

**********************************************

Although difficult, but I can:)

Love at First Sight ♥

The first time I saw you, I do not have the feeling nothing to you. But why? When the night you ask acquaintances to me, I already know that you will find me:) Since then, I fell in love with you, I do not know why, every day I'm always looking for an excuse to find yourself. Our relationship after the introduction of the increasingly close to each other, understand each other. Until finally you express love to me .. I really * shocked *.

I closed my eyes and said in my heart
" Did he really like me? I think no, it's a joke "

So, I say to him
"Okay, give a few days to think about this "

He said
"No problem, as long as you can think, i will be wait for you ♥ "

After that, I give you a week's time, in time, I think.
Can I trust him, like him, love him and love him with a sincere heart?
I tried, and I accept
Maybe from the beginning you will never know, once I was determined to undergo the relationship I do not stop in the middle of the road, and I will continue that relationship until the end of my life:)
I was so happy then but at that moment I confused,
Is this true - true happiness between you and me?

Time after time runs
My relationship and you are more closely
Living the story of love and our love.

I realize, maybe for now
I am the happiest person
Because it can together with you that I love
What makes my life more colorful than before it:)

Start the existence of conflict between the two of us
But we never doubt and trust
All the disruption is only temporary
Because it was not shake us
To split:)

It was almost three months we shared in garnished with laughter, tears and laughter.
We each make an appointment to come out together during the three months.
But the reason is a bit odd and absurd, you cancel it
Know whether at that time? I was extremely disappointed!
Too disappointed, and what about you? It did not feel guilty.

Since then, I did not dare to hope with you again
Because once again hope, I'll be in it by yourself disappointed many - times the
Hoping that is not certain, will make you, me sick too
But I finally fixed all you do understand
With regard previously nothing happened.

Slowly - slowly we are getting to understand each other.
I feel we'll be together forever and so do you.
Until then, almost one day me and you together.
We went through with love and affection, hugs and grip of your hand.
Although only briefly, it is very meaningful to me especially in my heart.
Because I always appreciate every second with you.
Happiness with you like that will not come a second time.

Already nearing my birthday, you promise me to give me a special gift, and I just want you.
Love is the best gift for me:) (by then I was thinking like this)
Sounds selfish. HAHA! But this is exactly what I want, only you that I want, to accompany each of my day:)

But since then also, you changed at all, not like you that I once knew
A few days later, you say you sometimes can remember your ex!
Do you not know when I hear it, my heart shattered - to pieces.
His heart was sore, but I could only bury and be patient
All will be lost over time:)

Slowly - slowly I feel, you're no longer love me
I feel, that sense of affection that you give me disappear, over time
Faded, lost, no longer remain
The relationship between us became estranged, I can not stand if the relationship continues to live like this!
But we resolve the problem by slowly - slowly

Until the time I was sick, and you will compete.
But what can I do, I can not come out to support you compete
My heart sad, miserable.

Since then, you come back changed!
I do not think you liked the other woman
Previously I do not know, until you say the parting words to me.

Decision making myself sick for a long time because of you
I like falling into hell from heaven.
Make me ask - ask why you are unable to express it.